Hi guise ^^v Natasha Eliyana is back in full force. Whoosh. Not that I was particularly missing or something. I was actually trying to start on my BM Komsas project. Note the word 'trying' please. It seems like there are so much time, yet, so little time. It is confusing. I am confused.

I have been in a rocky ship for a while. I am uncertain. Unsure. I can't find any sense of clarity in my future. Absolutely no lucidity. I am not good in all this. I do not know what I'm good at. Okay, I know I am good in sleeping my heart out and stuffing myself with food. I am not sure what to make out of it. Every night, I found myself thinking all of this little problems, but, then, I ran off. I blocked my thoughts. I shifted it into happier thoughts. Less complicated stuffs. That's the problem with me. I always ran. Not that I am a good runner in any way. I fall and it hurts. I whine but nobody hears.

In a way, I am sure. He has everything planned for me. He knows the best. I shall try my best to ask for His Guidance. :3

Enough of melodramatic shit. -.- Oh, I had found my hidden passion in reading again. Currently reading a book titled Beautiful Creature courtesy of Asfa who lent it to me. :3 The book is freaking beautiful. ;~; It was interesting as the book was written from the point of view of a guy which is cool since a girl point of view is filled with mellow, drama shit that I can't even comprehend myself.

I have found myself hooked up on strange things. Ribena, as usual. Nescafe, the caffeine and most newly found love interest, Vico. And I started noticing funny things with Tiqah. Like when I saw Tiqah buying a glass of lychee drinks, I will laugh and started babbling on how Henry would kill to drink it. Or how me and Tiqah imagined Puan Suzy having a Canadian accent conversation with Henry Lau. And how we both agreed Kikwang will be too hopeless doing integration. And how we believed only Shim Changmin could differentiate axial and appendicular skeleton perfectly. These little things make me laugh. Sometimes, until the extent I can't hear what Puan Ooi was talking. Or at other times hitting the table so hard and gasping for air. School life. It's funny.

That is all. I shall take a bath, eat cekodok and tuck in my bed reading Beautiful Creature. Adieu ~

Mood : s h o ck e d -