.The Question.
11:00 PM
Dear Yunho..
u said its gonna be OK...
i believe in what you said..
and i pray that its the truth..
but..maybe u're wrong too..
things actually getting more and more complicated..
i dont know what to do..
i dont know who to trust..
nor who to hate and love..
ah~~T^T
maybe what Shinogu said is correct..(u dont have to know who Shinogu is)
"i'm afraid that one day my happiness will end..
because i used it too much now..so..i try to saving my happiness.."
gah~~maybe i had used all my happiness..
thats why now i'm not happy anymore..
i had enough crying for hours..
my pillow already wet with my tears..
enough sadness!!
i think i know what to do now..
i'll just continue my daily life like i usually does..
and i dont care if i have zero friends..
whoever want to be my friends..
just approach me and said "Hi Natasha!!So..What's up?!"
i'll reply it with a smile and said "Anyeonghase-YO!!What's up?!Sky!!bwahahaha.."
if u dont want to be my friends..
and decide not to talk to me..
fine!!i'll not talk to you too...
just imagined that we never know each other..
but..i'm still waiting if u still want to be my friend..
i'm not a mean person anyway..
but..i'm still confused..
is this the right thing to do?
Dear Yunho..
is this the right thing to do?
u said its gonna be OK...
i believe in what you said..
and i pray that its the truth..
but..maybe u're wrong too..
things actually getting more and more complicated..
i dont know what to do..
i dont know who to trust..
nor who to hate and love..
ah~~T^T
maybe what Shinogu said is correct..(u dont have to know who Shinogu is)
"i'm afraid that one day my happiness will end..
because i used it too much now..so..i try to saving my happiness.."
gah~~maybe i had used all my happiness..
thats why now i'm not happy anymore..
i had enough crying for hours..
my pillow already wet with my tears..
enough sadness!!
i think i know what to do now..
i'll just continue my daily life like i usually does..
and i dont care if i have zero friends..
whoever want to be my friends..
just approach me and said "Hi Natasha!!So..What's up?!"
i'll reply it with a smile and said "Anyeonghase-YO!!What's up?!Sky!!bwahahaha.."
if u dont want to be my friends..
and decide not to talk to me..
fine!!i'll not talk to you too...
just imagined that we never know each other..
but..i'm still waiting if u still want to be my friend..
i'm not a mean person anyway..
but..i'm still confused..
is this the right thing to do?
Dear Yunho..
is this the right thing to do?
i dont want other people got hurt because of me..
if the person got hurt because of me..
i'll be thousand times hurt because of it..
what i wish now is..
everything going back like usual..
and i can keep smiling..
now..
it feels so hard to smile..
no matter how hard i try to smile..
it just seems so fake..
i dont know how long i can carry on..
with this fake smiles..
and fake laughter..
i hope people doesn't notice my fake smile & laughter..
i said it like thousand ties already..
but..people seems to take notice of it..
I DO TREASURE EACH OF MY FRIENDS EQUALLY!!
everyone has their own personality..
so does all my friends..
and i love every each of it..
like what i said..
i dont anybody get hurt because of me..
i dont want X to get hurt because she is my bestest friend...
nor i want Y to get hurt too because she is my true friend..
i love both of them very much..
why just X & Y understand it?!
i cant make a choice..
X or Y...
yes..maybe i'll choose X because she is my soulmates..
but..Y is also important in my life..she make sure i smile everyday..
eventhough sometimes Y's word is kinda harsh..
Yunho!!!!!!!!!
i hate being a weak person!!
i hate crying!!
i hate to show my weak side to others..
my heart ache so much!!
if i can just throw away my heart..
so..i have no feelings and then i just can live happily without any worries anymore..
Dear Yunho..
i'm still hoping what you said is true..
everything will be OK..
To all my fellow friends and classmates..
thanx for the support..
eventhough ur support really make me wanna kill u guys..
Calon Tokoh Murid 1 Maju..
what the TOOOT?!
and thanx to Qi and Van for helping me today..
u guys did a great job..
maybe i just give X time to relax herself kay?
To Nia..
thanx a lot..
for all the advice..
and of course the picture~~
its so cute & inspiring..hehe..
ah~~emo post again..
this time writing this post for Yunho..
gosh~~what happen to me?!*smack head*
P.S:Yunho look great in that pic right?!hehe..
Mood :
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