Anyeonghase-Yo~~*weak voice*
just skip this post..
i'm not feeling okay today..
life getting harder recently..
to cure my depression..
i'd make a new record!!!
sleeping from 2pm- 7pm~~(yeay for me~)
isnt sleep is the best way to solve ur problem other than to listening to DBSK's song?!
i think it is..

for god sake~~
this is more depressing than to know that people think Yunho & Sunny are a couple~~
much much more depressing than to know that Kibum cant come to Malaysia~~

this post is dedicated to someone..
that i care the most..
she is someone i always thought as my 'best friend'..
but..maybe she never thought me as her best friend...

dear you..
maybe you will hate me after reading this..
but..i dont know what to do anymore..
you ignore me & didnt want to talk to me!!
why?!just tell me the reason!!

okay..here goes nothing...

Shab..
first..i wanna say sorry for everything i wrote in this post..
it just i'm in a bad mood now..

Dear Shabrina..
thanx a lot for being my friend..
really..many thanx..
not everybody want to be my friend..

i think we've been friends like for 1..2..3..8 months?!
yes..its not a long time..
but..i already called you my best friends..
i love hanging out with you..
i miss the times when all 8 of us sit down and chat..
i miss our 'kawaii club'..

i thought our friendship will last forever..
i thought there will never be any secrets between us...
but..i think i'm wrong now..

i'm just confused...
why are you avoiding me?!
you think i didnt notice it?!
for god sake Shab~~i'm not a heartless robot..
i can sense that you're trying to avoiding me..

you didnt talk to me..
you hang out with other girls..
you didnt want to sit beside me..
you even didnt want to be in the same group with me during lab time!!

at first..i thought it just me overreacting..
but..then..after a while..
yes..its really you who avoiding me..

why Shab?!why?!

do you remember how we become friends?!
if you do not remember it..
let me remind you..
we become friends because of DBSK!!
everyday..we talk and talk about DBSK..
how Jaejoong is so handsome..
and how Yunho is a charismatic person...
then..we naturally hang out together..
and..TADAH!!
i called you my best friend~~

but..now?!
i think its been forever since the last time i talked about DBSk with you..

i just want to know the reason...
why you are avoiding me..
just talk to me!!!
tell me why!!!
i'm sick of it..
i'm tired!!
i just..i'm so damn tension!!

fine..you hate me so much?!
after you tell me what the reason you're avoiding me..
then..i will leave you alone!!

but..please!!!
dont just keep quiet and didnt tell me anything..
today..
i try to talk to you..
i ask why are you avoiding me?!
you answer is "one day..you will know"
damn it Shab!!!this is not a Korean drama series!!
even in a Korean drama..
the first 30 minutes the best friends will fight..
and the next 30 minutes they will make up again..

then you said "if i tell you the reason..someone will get hurt"
enough toying with me!!
who?!who will get hurt?!
i think i'm the one who hurt here..

i miss the times when we debate wether Yunho or Jaejoong is more handsome..
i miss the times when we together make a vow that we will keep all our 'duit raya' to buy DBSK's souvenir..
i miss the times when both of us can connect everything that we saw to DBSK..
"omg!!he walks like Yunho!!"
"gosh~~he smiles like Jaejoong!!"
i'm so damn much missing it!!!

do you remember?
how both of us daydreaming in Pn Koh's class and imagined that DBSK will take over Pn Koh class and teach us...
do you remember?
how you comforted me during the time i'm so depressed because i make Ustazah mad at me..
do you remember?
how both of us dancing & singing to DBSK's song at the back of the class like crazy..
do you remember?
how both of us jumping like crazy when Mr Yong is our new English teacher..

schooling in a all-girls school..
makes me appreciate friendship damn much..

i so damn miss..
-how you will 'meleter' at me everytime i ask you to accompany me to the toilet
-how you always x siap homeworks and borrow mine
-how everytime i said Yunho is the handsomest guy in the world you will reply..
"hello..Jaejoong is the most handsome guy in Asia!"
-how we stayback every Friday after school for EduBox class from 12.30-5.oopm & we spend all those times with visiting Balai Seni
-how everytime we took a photo together we must do a DBSK pose..
-how only both of us(plus Tong) stay in class for 'Ms Wong Japanese Class'..
-how we plan crazy things together..(the 'Genting Higlands plan)
-how i always borrow notes from you during exam because i'm so lazy to study..

Shab..
maybe you think i'm a pathetic person..
but..i just want you to know..
i really care & love you as a friend..
please!!i'm pleading to you..
just talk to me & hang out with me like what we usually did..
i'm gettin tired seriously..
just tell me the reasons why are you avoiding me..

did i make you angry?
did i do something wrong?
did i hurt your feeling?
did i said something i shouldnt said?

Shab..
i'm waiting for you..
to tell me the reasons why you're avoiding me..
but..if you decide to continue avoiding me & ignoring me..
i cant do anything bout it..

and maybe as a reminder..

gosh~~why i'm posting such an emo post today?!*smack head on the wall*

Mood : L O N E L Y