Muse
4:30 PM오늘은 왠지 힘들고 지쳐
for some reason i’m worn out and tired
베개를 끌어안은 채 혼자 방안에 남아
remaining alone in my room, hugging a pillow
베개를 끌어안은 채 혼자 방안에 남아
remaining alone in my room, hugging a pillow
for some reasons , today feels so exhausting and tiring .
i opened my eyes and look around . another day , another day , i muttered . another day full with unnecessary things . another day full with smiles , laughs that i am not even sure the genuineness of it .
i lay down with my hands off , i wonder . is this really happening ? is this really me ? i touched my face . yes , this is me . trapped in this body of mine .
전화길 만지작거리는 나의 마음이
touching my phone, my heart is
웬지 오늘따라 외로운거죠
for some reason lonely today
touching my phone, my heart is
웬지 오늘따라 외로운거죠
for some reason lonely today
loneliness spreads in the blink of eye , wrapping around me tight and won't let go . empty , numb , blank . silent distress echoes in the little heart . where am i ? let me go .
갑자기 울린 전화에 놀라
frightened by the sudden ringing of my phone
밥 먹었는지 걱정하는 엄마 목소리가
my mother’s worried call asking me if i’ve eaten
frightened by the sudden ringing of my phone
밥 먹었는지 걱정하는 엄마 목소리가
my mother’s worried call asking me if i’ve eaten
as i hear your voice , that angel face of yours appears on mind .
" mom , loneliness won't let go of me . help me , mom . " screamed my little heart .
instead , a cheery , bubbly voice appears and answered your question . who are you ? can it be , you are me ?
귀찮게 들렸던 그 말이 오늘은 다른걸
those normally annoying words are different today
잊고 있었던 약속들이 떠올라요
those forgotten promises are being remembered.
those normally annoying words are different today
잊고 있었던 약속들이 떠올라요
those forgotten promises are being remembered.
can i stand on my own ? without mom ? will i ? or can i ? how can i continue living ? when i go to that place , can i live on ? will i breathe there ? can i breathe there ? but , does breathing matters when the sole reason you breath is gone ?
마음이 예쁜 사람이 될게요
I’ll become a person with a beautiful heart
남을 먼저 생각하는 사람 될게요
become a person who is selfless
엄마의 사랑의 바램들을 지켜갈게요
i’ll protect the expectations from mother’s love
나와 꿈을 함께 나누던 내 머릴 빗겨주던 엄마가 생각나
i think of mother who used to share my dreams and brush my hair
i still don't own a beautiful heart , mom . i have a lot of greed . can you follow me to the new place i'm going ? i don't want to live here anymore . mom , please follow me . that is my greed .
i don't have the guts . i don't have the strength . i just don't get it . does years of breathing on Earth means being matured ? and does being matured means being rebellious ? does being rebellious will truly frees you from uncertainty ?
i don't have the guts . i don't have the strength . i just don't get it . does years of breathing on Earth means being matured ? and does being matured means being rebellious ? does being rebellious will truly frees you from uncertainty ?
어떡하죠 아직 작은 내 맘이
what do I do, my yet small heart
엄마의 손을 놓으면 혼자 잘할 수 있을지
will it do well without holding mothers hand
i won't do well in that new place . i know it . i know the instance i decided to go . but , i need to go . i'm sick and tired of everything .
아직 부족한 것 같아 난 두려운 걸요
i am weary because I still lack so much
mom , don't follow me . even if you want to . i am going far away from here . from this suffocating prison created by mind of mine . that place is only for people like me . people who had lost their wings and can't continue to fly .
지혜로운 엄마의 딸 될게요 나에게 용기를 줘
i’ll become a wise mother’s daughter, give me the strength/confidence
어딜가도 자랑스런 딸이 될게요
i’ll become a praiseworthy daughter no matter where I go
한없이 보여준 사랑만큼 따스한 맘을 가질게요
I’ll become a heart that is warm as the unconditional love you’ve shown me
수줍어 자주 표현 못했죠
I was shy and couldnt often express,
I’ll become a heart that is warm as the unconditional love you’ve shown me
수줍어 자주 표현 못했죠
I was shy and couldnt often express,
the reason i breathe for years . i will stop breathing now . i can't go further . even your unconditional love can't stop loneliness . i fall into his trap and now he got me .
엄마 정말로 사랑해요
that mother, i really love you.
that mother, i really love you.
and that i am sorry . goodbye , mom .
to be , or not to be , is the real question .
and as i close my eyes for the last time , loneliness took me to a new world . i can feel my heart slowly stops beating . loneliness , where are you taking me ?
kay , me being random . what do you think ? i swear i'm a failure in writing one-shot . OTL .Mood ;
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