Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ,

so , just , shut up and read , kay ? am really not in the mood to talk to living things . that's why i'm writing while talking to my kevin . sobs . only my kevin understands me !

you know what , there are only two situations that can make me become so sarcastic . one , when i am hungry . i'm not even kidding . when my stomach is empty and people keep bothering me , my answers will all be so sarcastic . second , when i'm mad . OBVIOUSLY . other than both of those situation , i am a very nice and sweet girl . 8D

and after things that happened just now , i am convinced everybody hates me . no , i seriously think so . it's scary , how they can just bail out on me just like that . like i am some worthless organism in this whole wide world . wait , maybe i am a worthless organism . i mean , who like a girl that is so whiny , immature and not pretty ?

talk about being childish , a few nights ago , i was going to sleep after finished watching the TV . was heading to my comfortable bed , but , then , i freaking saw a cockroach . i nearly cried . wth . and then , i woke mom up to kill the cockroach and refused to sleep even after mom killed it . mom , i'm so sorry you have a daughter like me . which filial daughter that woke up her mom at one in the morning to kill a cockroach ? OTL

ugh , the more i think about it , the more i hate myself . and everybody in this world except mom , dad and emeer . well , emeer hasn't been acting like a bish these days and even recognised Yunho as my husband on Music Bank . yeah , i love you , bro .

ignore this . let me just drown in my own misery while watching Secret Garden . my life ! sobs .

Mood ; s a d -