today . haha . it's today . 5th May . today was supposed to be the best day ever other than my own birthday . today , i was supposed to cry tears of joy . today , i was supposed to forgot all about school and have fun . today , we were supposed to take pictures too . today , i was supposed to write my reports and thoughts about the party . today , i was supposed to joyfully upload tonnes of our pictures to my facebook , friendster , blog and myspace because you are so important to me . but , it won't happen .

did the others remember ? did they cry like me ? aren't they sad ? did they fake their laughs today ? yesterday , we loved each other and today , we loathe each other . funny place we are living , isn't it ? i watched each one of you and i feel like crying . are you girls acting like you just don't care either ? because if it is , you girls are very convincing . i think nobody remember this date . but , i'm keeping this date deep down inside my heart .

i feel like tearing our pictures . all those memories , it makes me want to break down all over again . crying and weeping every single day . but , i know i can't . i must be strong . i must learn . i must not cry again . i think it is true , maknae has grown up . ;')

it hurts to act like i don't care . like we never know each other . like we are not close . like i didn't know your phone model . like i didn't know where is your houses . like i don't know your habit . it hurts , it really hurts . Ya Allah , berilah kekuatan pada hambaMu ini . ;')

Mood ; s a d -