OH JUNG YUNHO ! IM SO FUCKING HYPOCRITE THAT I DESPISE MYSELF ! im behaving like a pure hypocrite . GAHHHH , PRESSUREEE ! :'(

i dont know how should i react . this is so confusing . why she tries to blame others ? why she never look in the mirror and ask herself what she had done ?

i hope i'm strong like Yunho , i hope i have a true smile like Junsu , i hope i can hold back my tears like Yoochun , i hope i can motivate others like Jaejoong and i hope i'll make everyone unite by crying like maknae Changmin . :'(

im seriously fucking depressed that if i dont have emcee job tomorrow , i'll be absent . im depresseddd .

oh ya , im fucking scared for tomorrow . wish me luck ! i hope i dont stutter on stage . pleaseee , wish me luck ! HWAITINGGGG !

p.s : i wish i can say the nine of us will never part ! :'(

Mood ; a n x i o u s -